Both my birthday and birthday celebration were a huge shift and lift for me. After two and a half weeks of miserable symptoms related to my treatment my mood had gotten very negative. As I described below, on my birthday hike I made a nice shift for myself. The next day at my Pizza & Pumpkins Party all of the shared love and celebration was a huge lift for me. Here's a video that the awesome Nicole took of me sharing the journal entry that I had written below. Enjoy!
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Today I celebrate my birthday, though the actual occasion
was yesterday. In addition to the
new Pyrex baking pans I bought myself, I gave myself a more valuable gift. I took a hike with my dog through the
local desert canyon landscapes to rest alongside the easily flowing Colorado
River. In a return to nature I
often find a return to self. It
was much needed (from my journal with toes dangling above the water):
Oct 20th, 2012, My 37th BD: Cottonwoods
and River off Rustler’s…
There
are so many ways I could start this BD edition journal entry. I’ve quickly reminded myself to avoid
negativity, referring to the realization on this hike that I need to burn the
word “negative” in tomorrow’s fire.
So I’ll say: It is and epic
October day on the Colorado River.
My most excellent dog is chillin’ in the tall luscious grass and I am starfishin’ in the presence of Godly red rock walls and glorious golden cottonwoods. It’s
also remarkable that I hiked
here and got to hear the sound
of my sandals on sand, and now my beautiful bare feet, when they told me 7 months ago that I
could be dead in 4. And what a blessing chemo didn’t work cause look, I don’t look like a cancer patient. In fact, I am alive and strong! I have so much gratitude for those who love and that I have so many friends where there is no
line between them and family (tribe). And, I know how to feel, and I know how to heal, and I feel good when I rhyme, so I think I’ll make that healthy this time.
And, I have the ability to build energy and let it flow, so join me my friends and let it go. Happy Birthday to me! I am loved, I love, I AM LOVE.